Friday, July 25, 2014



The more he cares about me, the more I am afraid... I am afraid to expect more from him, to depend more on him, to realize that one day, I will need to let him go.. Once that day comes, how am I able to say good bye?

 Love is  a scary thing. It can lift people up to heaven, and can put them deep down to hell. Human are stupid creatures,but also the bravest one. Asking how they love passionately and tenderly knowing that one day, their heart will be broken in pieces. Promising staying together forever? I am asking if that is foolish or their words are not meant to kept in the beginning?

If I have a chance to describe what love is, I would say " love is white lie". Instead of asking if people believe in love, isn't life better to believe love is true". 

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Everything happens for a reason

What is fate? What is supposed to happen should be let happen or avoid? The whole Chinese philosophy i went through still stay in my mind. Should people follow their human nature? Let things happen the way it is supposed to as nature. Who we are to know what the nature should be, but to try hard. Even some of us don't know what we are striving for. People get lost in material thoughts, jealousy, wealth, etc. I don't agree with Buddha that "Life is suffering". I want to keep a positive attitude. Let's just think that after every heavy rain, there will be a rainbow. People from experiencing different states, from happiness, sadness, disappointment, failure, success, become who we are now. Isn't the thing distinguishing human from other species that people can experience different emotions? Life is a beautiful thing. Being a human is an amazing gift. Let's embrace it. Embrace sadness or happiness, failure or success, ups or downs. I have learned that everyone has different hardships in life but people learn from them differently. What you learn makes you different. I used to feel stressed about being an international student. I hate all the obstacles I need to come over when I look for a part time job: language, working permit, Federal study. But now I stop, or at least, less think about it. I feel like those obstacle makes me stronger. Before to go and ask somebody for job already scared me off, now I can go to three to five places a day to ask for job and still feel good even being rejected for that reason. I become more independent and confident. Life works magically that way. It gives you difficulties, scare you off. Who run away cannot see its beauty, who dare to try love every moment of it.
"Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain!"
-Vivian Greene